i love you.

such a simple phrase that’s so difficult to say out loud.  especially for friends whose parents never said it.  even if it’s understood,  hearing someone say it out loud makes a world of difference.

which brings me back to the reason i brought the topic up.  when you’re around people you love,  you don’t usually think to tell them how you feel. there are very few people that will pass through your life and leave your heart changed. with two of my closest friends moving on to new life phases (one physically moving away and another moving onto engagement / marriage),  i don’t want them to move forward without the reassurance that i love them both desperately with all my heart.

so.  this is me not waiting until you’ve gone to tell you i love you.  quite dearly. this is a time to celebrate!!

life happens in four year cycles.

once i entered high school, major events of my life started occurring in four year cycles. after four years of high school, i graduated and moved on to college. after four years of high school, i graduated and moved on to my first full-time job. those were the rules of the game.  i’ve changed career paths since but lived in new york the whole time. now my four year anniversary in new york is approaching, and i’m not sure what my next major life event will be.  my friends that entered medical and dental school after undergrad have completed their education and are entering residency programs. several of my peers are moving on to graduate school. and of course, even more are getting married/engaged within the year. what really hit home recently was that my best friend (krislo.tumblr.com – she needs to update her blog) just accepted a job offer in hong kong and is moving away in a month. do i feel left behind? yes, a bit. if anything, this is reopening my eyes to the notion that i must continue to pursue my own future. whatever form it may take. it’s surprisingly easy to stay complacent in a place like new york city, even when surrounded by ambitious go-getters. but mini epiphanies hit me amidst all the changes surrounding me and i’m refocused. sort of.

life is indeed happening.

saturday morning surprise.

was on my way to the laundry room this morning, when a winged cockroach-like insect fluttered down from the ceiling. thank God my maintenance friend was mopping the laundry room at the same time, because i reverted to my five year old squirmy self and asked him to help. aughhhh that woke me up faster than my morning coffee.

i really really hope my future husband can handle bugs. i’ll do all the laundry if you take care of the bugs, kthx.