i love you.

such a simple phrase that’s so difficult to say out loud.  especially for friends whose parents never said it.  even if it’s understood,  hearing someone say it out loud makes a world of difference.

which brings me back to the reason i brought the topic up.  when you’re around people you love,  you don’t usually think to tell them how you feel. there are very few people that will pass through your life and leave your heart changed. with two of my closest friends moving on to new life phases (one physically moving away and another moving onto engagement / marriage),  i don’t want them to move forward without the reassurance that i love them both desperately with all my heart.

so.  this is me not waiting until you’ve gone to tell you i love you.  quite dearly. this is a time to celebrate!!


as much as i love love, the cheesy jewelry commercials airing during the holidays and valentine’s day make me want to gaggggg. sorry. need to get that out of my system.

“she wants to change the world. and be with someone doing that too.”

oops. wrote this up in AUGUST. never published it.

“[michelle] wants to save the world. and be with someone doing that too.” – christina fang (paraphrased because i can’t remember the exact words.)

last night over dinner at lemongrass in nj, my buddy alan asked me to describe my dear childhood friend christina. immediately i said, “she wants to rule the world.” surprised at how quickly that came out, christina pondered that comment and slowly realized how true it was. she is one of the most driven, ambitious, independent women i have come to know and love.

then alan proceeded to ask christina the same question, to which she thoughtfully responded, “she wants to change the world. and be with someone doing that too.” her answer startled me for a moment. it’s been ages since i’ve really thought about the big picture of my life. i mean, i think about my future all the time but typically in smaller time increments – i.e. the next few years. what christina said was very true though. incredibly so. at my heart of hearts, i want to make an impact. and be in love and living life with someone with a strong passion for making his own impact as well.

i love catching up and feeling loved by old friends. [had some more nostalgic romantic mumbo jumbo intertwined in this closing but decided against it. yatta!]

falling back in love.

falling back in love with ny. learning to take time to enjoy it.

sometimes i forget how privileged i am to live in this city.

more baking. chinese new year. puppy love.